Day Nineteen

Today was tough because I got about 2 hours of sleep on the outside, and I had a hard time keeping my eyes open most of the morning. I had to travel into Manhattan for class today, which added time on both ends of my morning class and generally added to my over-tiredness and stress.

Breakfast

• ham & cheese sandwich
• skim milk
• raisins

I woke up with just enough time to get ready and get on the subway. I could have made time for breakfast, but I was so tired I was feeling almost nauseous so I didn't bother. Consequently I was hungry AND tired all morning, which made me more than a bit cranky. I considered buying breakfast on the street, but I didn't really think it would be worth blowing my diet or my schedule, so I waited.

When I did finally get to have breakfast, I practically shoved it in my mouth, so tired I could barely even taste things.

Lunch

• Lean Cuisine meatloaf and mashed potatoes

On the way from the subway home, I was in a rush and stopped at the grocery to pick up some frozen lunches that I could quickly heat. I have no idea which ones are acceptable on my meal plan or not, nor can I figure out the logic of what to combine with them. I'll have to take some time to sort that out, maybe on the weekend.

This lunch was surprisingly bland, anemic in flavor and really quite awful. I was so disappointed because I was really looking forward to hearty, flavorful food and found this soggy and just, lousy. It's entirely possible that my mood, the wet weather, and the impending stressful afternoon contributed to my lack of enjoyment, but something was definitely off.

Snack

• packet of Wheat Thins (not pictured)

After class I went back to my studio to work more, and to put off coming home I grabbed some Wheat Thins from the vending machine. They were incredibly delicious and sustained me for a surprisingly long time, so I was very happy.

Dinner

• very small portion of three-cheese tortellini in garlic butter (not pictured)
• turkey and cheese on a whole-wheat roll (not pictured)

I got home close to midnight, having not slept for longer than I could calculate. The grocery store was already closed, and my boyfriend had made tortellini in garlic butter. There was a tiny portion left, probably like 14 tortellinis total, and though I didn't mean to eat that as my meal, one bite turned into eating the rest of it straight from the cooking pot. I kept myself mostly in control, having only a modest turkey sandwich after that, and though I should have had some salad or fruit, I just crashed out and went to much-needed sleep.