Weigh-In Week Nine

187.5. Up a pound. Honestly, I couldn't care less.

I'm sort of a mess right now and not particularly interested in whether I gain or lose weight. I actually hate my body and would like to do lots of harm to it at the moment, but that is a childish response to emotional stuff, so I'm going to just stay on the diet as best I can and try not to do things I'd regret, like going off.

I'm going to start exercising more because I think even if that doesn't help me to be less upset, it will at least tire me out until I can't cry anymore.

Damnit.


Weight Loss This Week: gained 1 pound
Total Weight Loss: 14.5 pounds